Felicia Houston, Racism and Mental Health

[{“text”:”[Music]”,”start”:2.62,”duration”:26.199},{“text”:”do”,”start”:42.84,”duration”:3},{“text”:”[Music]”,”start”:47.71,”duration”:34.339},{“text”:”[Music]”,”start”:84.13,”duration”:5.809},{“text”:”well hello there”,”start”:90.96,”duration”:5.76},{“text”:”good morning good afternoon good evening”,”start”:94.159,”duration”:5.041},{“text”:”wherever you are in the world”,”start”:96.72,”duration”:5.88},{“text”:”it’s dr janice hooker fortman with”,”start”:99.2,”duration”:6.16},{“text”:”relationship matters”,”start”:102.6,”duration”:6.199},{“text”:”i hope sincerely”,”start”:105.36,”duration”:6.96},{“text”:”that everyone can see me this evening”,”start”:108.799,”duration”:6.561},{“text”:”i just got a notice from”,”start”:112.32,”duration”:6.799},{“text”:”facebook that says”,”start”:115.36,”duration”:6.88},{“text”:”facebook is having issues”,”start”:119.119,”duration”:6.481},{“text”:”and it might not be showing”,”start”:122.24,”duration”:7.6},{“text”:”on facebook you know 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been”,”start”:215.92,”duration”:5.599},{“text”:”devalued the experience”,”start”:218,”duration”:6.799},{“text”:”of racism and bigotry”,”start”:221.519,”duration”:6.481},{“text”:”far too often leads to”,”start”:224.799,”duration”:7.201},{“text”:”mental health issues”,”start”:228,”duration”:7.599},{“text”:”now racism is a mental health issue”,”start”:232,”duration”:6.959},{“text”:”because racism causes trauma”,”start”:235.599,”duration”:6.241},{“text”:”so let me tell you a little bit about”,”start”:238.959,”duration”:3.521},{“text”:”racial”,”start”:241.84,”duration”:5.28},{“text”:”trauma simply”,”start”:242.48,”duration”:4.64},{“text”:”traumatization that results”,”start”:247.239,”duration”:6.601},{“text”:”from experiencing racism in any of”,”start”:250.319,”duration”:7.521},{“text”:”its many forms importantly this doesn’t”,”start”:253.84,”duration”:4.959},{“text”:”have to be”,”start”:257.84,”duration”:4.639},{“text”:”one major isolated event but it 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experience”,”start”:304.16,”duration”:5.52},{“text”:”as a licensed clinical professional”,”start”:306.24,”duration”:7.6},{“text”:”counselor she’s has earned a ba”,”start”:309.68,”duration”:6.88},{“text”:”a bachelor’s degree in psychology and a”,”start”:313.84,”duration”:5.44},{“text”:”master’s in human development”,”start”:316.56,”duration”:4.56},{“text”:”human development counseling from”,”start”:319.28,”duration”:5.52},{“text”:”bradley university in peoria illinois”,”start”:321.12,”duration”:7.2},{“text”:”now mrs houston loves educating the”,”start”:324.8,”duration”:4.32},{“text”:”masses”,”start”:328.32,”duration”:4.48},{“text”:”about mental health and wellness”,”start”:329.12,”duration”:6.799},{“text”:”her passion lies in inspiring and”,”start”:332.8,”duration”:4.56},{“text”:”empowering women”,”start”:335.919,”duration”:4.56},{“text”:”to make the agreement for positive”,”start”:337.36,”duration”:4.24},{“text”:”change”,”start”:340.479,”duration”:4.641},{“text”:”in their personal and 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felicia”,”start”:385.199,”duration”:6.241},{“text”:”we’re going to talk about this issue”,”start”:389.28,”duration”:3.68},{“text”:”because it’s an it’s an”,”start”:391.44,”duration”:4.879},{“text”:”ongoing issue since slavery”,”start”:392.96,”duration”:7.2},{“text”:”and it’s still relevant today”,”start”:396.319,”duration”:7.521},{“text”:”so let me bring to you”,”start”:400.16,”duration”:8},{“text”:”mrs felicia houston hi felicia”,”start”:403.84,”duration”:8.72},{“text”:”hi dr jan how are you i’m doing great”,”start”:408.16,”duration”:7.439},{“text”:”except for um”,”start”:412.56,”duration”:5.68},{“text”:”i’m not sure if this is going across”,”start”:415.599,”duration”:4.401},{“text”:”facebook or not”,”start”:418.24,”duration”:4.799},{“text”:”because all of a sudden”,”start”:420,”duration”:6.199},{“text”:”um these little red”,”start”:423.039,”duration”:6.481},{“text”:”exclamation points came up”,”start”:426.199,”duration”:6.361},{“text”:”and it says we’re having 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comes back so i’m going to”,”start”:512.56,”duration”:3.44},{“text”:”put”,”start”:515.599,”duration”:3.601},{“text”:”on here let me see what’s showing up on”,”start”:516,”duration”:4.24},{“text”:”facebook”,”start”:519.2,”duration”:3.759},{“text”:”yeah right you’re saying the video it’s”,”start”:520.24,”duration”:4.88},{“text”:”not showing it says the video ended two”,”start”:522.959,”duration”:4.801},{“text”:”minutes ago”,”start”:525.12,”duration”:2.64},{“text”:”no it didn’t because”,”start”:527.839,”duration”:6.481},{“text”:”i’m still broadcasting yeah it’s not”,”start”:531.6,”duration”:3.6},{“text”:”showing on”,”start”:534.32,”duration”:4},{“text”:”on your page it’s not showing i’m”,”start”:535.2,”duration”:6.48},{“text”:”i’m still broadcasting um isn’t this”,”start”:538.32,”duration”:4.56},{“text”:”something”,”start”:541.68,”duration”:3.76},{“text”:”well remember that this you know”,”start”:542.88,”duration”:4.56},{“text”:”technology is our 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your”,”start”:617.36,”duration”:4.64},{“text”:”career”,”start”:619.92,”duration”:4.24},{“text”:”um well i would say when i first went to”,”start”:622,”duration”:3.04},{“text”:”college my”,”start”:624.16,”duration”:3.28},{“text”:”my major was international business with”,”start”:625.04,”duration”:4.4},{“text”:”a minor in spanish”,”start”:627.44,”duration”:3.36},{“text”:”but the first class i took in”,”start”:629.44,”duration”:3.28},{“text”:”international business was so god-awful”,”start”:630.8,”duration”:2.8},{“text”:”boring”,”start”:632.72,”duration”:3.52},{“text”:”um that i decided to switch and i”,”start”:633.6,”duration”:4.16},{“text”:”switched to psychology”,”start”:636.24,”duration”:4.08},{“text”:”and i just i loved psychology and so i”,”start”:637.76,”duration”:3.199},{“text”:”stuck with”,”start”:640.32,”duration”:3.36},{“text”:”psychology but i think when you talk”,”start”:640.959,”duration”:4},{“text”:”about when i talk about”,”start”:643.68,”duration”:3.36},{“text”:”mental 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me”,”start”:2231.04,”duration”:6.4},{“text”:”is a a very very”,”start”:2234.4,”duration”:6.64},{“text”:”important topic but i want to ask you”,”start”:2237.44,”duration”:7.2},{“text”:”this what is the worst”,”start”:2241.04,”duration”:7.039},{“text”:”mental health issue that you’ve had to”,”start”:2244.64,”duration”:4.32},{“text”:”deal with”,”start”:2248.079,”duration”:5.441},{“text”:”because of of racism”,”start”:2248.96,”duration”:4.56},{“text”:”i would say suicide attempts”,”start”:2253.68,”duration”:7.36},{“text”:”um because it has got it had been so it”,”start”:2256.96,”duration”:4.56},{“text”:”was so”,”start”:2261.04,”duration”:3.52},{“text”:”bad for some people um just the taunting”,”start”:2261.52,”duration”:6.4},{“text”:”the the mistreatment um the feeling”,”start”:2264.56,”duration”:5.279},{“text”:”devalued feeling hopeless feeling”,”start”:2267.92,”duration”:3.84},{“text”:”helpless um”,”start”:2269.839,”duration”:4.401},{“text”:”suffering from symptoms from depression”,”start”:2271.76,”duration”:4},{“text”:”um and then”,”start”:2274.24,”duration”:3.28},{“text”:”it just getting to the point where they”,”start”:2275.76,”duration”:3.839},{“text”:”feel that it’s just better if i just”,”start”:2277.52,”duration”:3.44},{“text”:”take my life”,”start”:2279.599,”duration”:3.201},{“text”:”and so i would say that that is the”,”start”:2280.96,”duration”:3.6},{“text”:”worst um so”,”start”:2282.8,”duration”:4.319},{“text”:”for people that are experiencing this”,”start”:2284.56,”duration”:4.08},{“text”:”you know to realize that it does affect”,”start”:2287.119,”duration”:3.121},{“text”:”your mental health and you may”,”start”:2288.64,”duration”:4},{“text”:”need to talk to somebody um to talk”,”start”:2290.24,”duration”:3.04},{“text”:”through it”,”start”:2292.64,”duration”:3.12},{“text”:”because it’s it’s it does affect you and”,”start”:2293.28,”duration”:3.52},{“text”:”i think”,”start”:2295.76,”duration”:3.359},{“text”:”many times as a people we just 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you”,”start”:3402.319,”duration”:6.321},{“text”:”um they can reach me i’m on facebook as”,”start”:3406.559,”duration”:3.121},{“text”:”felicia houston”,”start”:3408.64,”duration”:4.719},{“text”:”i’m on instagram as felicia marie speaks”,”start”:3409.68,”duration”:5.76},{“text”:”um and then i see my webs the website is”,”start”:3413.359,”duration”:3.281},{“text”:”going across”,”start”:3415.44,”duration”:3.679},{“text”:”um and i also have a stress less”,”start”:3416.64,”duration”:3.6},{“text”:”coloring book”,”start”:3419.119,”duration”:3.281},{“text”:”it’s called stress less live more um you”,”start”:3420.24,”duration”:3.76},{“text”:”can find it on amazon”,”start”:3422.4,”duration”:3.199},{“text”:”because i do believe that you have to”,”start”:3424,”duration”:3.359},{“text”:”have some coping skills you know when”,”start”:3425.599,”duration”:3.921},{“text”:”you’re having all those stressful things”,”start”:3427.359,”duration”:3.921},{“text”:”happening you have to have some 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for”,”start”:3486.799,”duration”:4.32},{“text”:”being my guest”,”start”:3489.92,”duration”:5.12},{“text”:”and if you’re looking for”,”start”:3491.119,”duration”:3.921},{“text”:”a person who can help you who can”,”start”:3495.2,”duration”:4.399},{“text”:”counsel you”,”start”:3497.68,”duration”:4.72},{“text”:”go to felicia’s website order her”,”start”:3499.599,”duration”:4.161},{“text”:”coloring book”,”start”:3502.4,”duration”:4.64},{“text”:”order her services felicia”,”start”:3503.76,”duration”:6.48},{“text”:”marie houston dot”,”start”:3507.04,”duration”:7.12},{“text”:”com thank you felicia so much for”,”start”:3510.24,”duration”:6.96},{“text”:”my guest i i really appreciate it”,”start”:3514.16,”duration”:5.76},{“text”:”and you know what i’m i’m going to find”,”start”:3517.2,”duration”:3.04},{“text”:”out”,”start”:3519.92,”duration”:2.159},{“text”:”about what happened with this facebook”,”start”:3520.24,”duration”:4.079},{“text”:”because it just didn’t make sense to me”,”start”:3522.079,”duration”:4.561},{“text”:”but anyway we’ll find out what happened”,”start”:3524.319,”duration”:4.48},{“text”:”we’ll find out thank you for having me”,”start”:3526.64,”duration”:5.919},{“text”:”i great great great great great”,”start”:3528.799,”duration”:6.961},{“text”:”and um i’ll be seeing you again soon”,”start”:3532.559,”duration”:6.321},{“text”:”all right you take care dr chan bye-bye”,”start”:3535.76,”duration”:6.88},{“text”:”okay you too felicia bye-bye”,”start”:3538.88,”duration”:3.76},{“text”:”well that was a very interesting”,”start”:3543.52,”duration”:3.599},{“text”:”interesting”,”start”:3546.319,”duration”:4.721},{“text”:”uh conversation and i hope”,”start”:3547.119,”duration”:7.2},{“text”:”that um you”,”start”:3551.04,”duration”:5.759},{“text”:”all my audience will get a chance to see”,”start”:3554.319,”duration”:4},{“text”:”it i’m going to make sure”,”start”:3556.799,”duration”:3.841},{“text”:”that you get a chance to see it but 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